Why it is so tough to accept things? 🙃

First of all, I’m extremely sorry for grammatical mistakes that you’ll see here for sure. It’s my first ever try to write whatever is in my mind because I’m really tired now with bearing all these burden inside my mind, I need to write, may be it can help me to understand myself and I hope, you guys will help me in this!

Sometimes we know clearly that we just can’t do some things but we still want to do those and end up struggling with more stress and anxiety instead of doing what we are best at!

Hey guys, I’m Saurabh, a social media marketer, has built my community on instagram in last 1 year, has really enjoyed my journey but since few weeks, things are not going in my way, and No, it’s not really about growth in terms of numbers, community, money and all, but it’s about I’ve been stuck in same loop of what I’ve been doing since long while I know, I can improve a lot and can get much better recognition with expression my natural self.

I’ll be very honest here with you, I’ve posting consistently about Instagram growth and how one can monetise this platform but that’s where I’m actually getting stuck now, I feel like I’m doing my best so I’ve been trying a lot more thing in recent few weeks, experimenting a lot. In this process, yeah, I’m learning but still I feel that I’m not focusing on what I’m really better at and this thought process is trapping me.

Sometimes my Mind want to accept that I’m done putting efforts in the wrong direction, I need to give up and start focusing on what I’m really good at and what we can do naturally.

But this illusion of perfection keep trying to trap me and I just let it do, I actually want to get trapped. 🥹

I can understand that things are not the same everyday.. and they won’t be ever!

You know, if we are weak in something, we can improve it with time but we can’t really be good at everything, we just can’t. So is it not better to stop wasting time and energy on those things?

But even if want to accept that “okay, I can’t do this”, my ego comes in middle.

Then overthinking, procrastination, perfection, and such many more deceases start tracking me almost everywhere 👀

But not anymore!

I really am done! I want to give up!

Should I??