from depression and laziness — Of course I’m not supposed to say “fat” as it is “offensive” to certain people, but yeah, I’m just getting fat. And I don’t like it. I’ve been eating too much out of laziness and depression for a few months now. …

and trying to enjoy more of each moment — Not really doing much differently, I’m mainly just doing things in different proportions. I’m trying to take more time with the things I really enjoy. I’m still planning for the future, while making more of the moment with whatever I am doing. My new thing though, is spending a few…

changes approaching for me — When it’s cold I have to work around a different schedule than I do in the summer. This is because we heat with a wood stove. It is in the living room, and it heats the whole house except for the garage. …

four fiction books — I went thrifting specifically for fiction books yesterday. They were a dollar each, for four old paperback fiction books. None are in good condition, but that is OK, as I only plan to read them, they are not for resale or anything. I was specifically looking for science fiction, but…

One sucked, the other didn’t — Last night’s dinner and movie pick was semi-successful. Dinner was good, the movie wasn’t. I will start with dinner. In the morning I put half a pork roast in the crock pot to cook all day. I didn’t add any seasonings. …

My depression is slowly getting better — I don’t even know how long this depression has been lasting, it seems like two months or more. Just the past week things have been starting to get better for me. My faith has helped me the most, but there are other factors as well, such as not watching the…

Slowly feeling more human — It started as a big pile in our backyard: two cords of badly cut firewood. It was cheap, so we bought it like this. Most pieces too big and too long for a normal wood stove. Now, it is sorted into pieces long enough to fit but that still need…

I haven’t been able to write for days — I’m not even sure why I’m writing this. Maybe I’m bored. Thoughts go around in my head, but can’t settle on anything. I can’t think of anything to write about that’s not depressing personnally, or collectively. What is the point to adding more doom to the world? We all have…

a real question — The more I become spiritually aware, the more confused I get. I have to keep reminding myself I most likely don’t have a clue as to what is actually going on…after 12 years, I’ve gone through many epiphanies, many apparent understandings, and they usually turn out to be wrong. My…